As I mentioned in my last post, I have a new calling as MiaMaid Adviser. As a part of this calling, it my responsibility to teach the lesson. I found myself with a great struggle this week, as the lesson is on honoring your parents and sustaining family members. How could I stand up there, as a hypocrite, and tell them how to love and support their family, when my own personal relationships are lacking friendship, support, and forgiveness?!?!
I had the opportunity to attend the temple tonight for our ward temple night, and had some time to ponder these things, when it occured to me that I needed to make more effort in the relationships with you all. I realized that having an eternal family is the core of my belief. The core of my faith. I want to be with my husband and my child (hopefully children eventually) forever, and I want to be with my parents, and each and every one of my brothers and sisters. I don't care what has happened in the past, I want to spend eternity with each and every one of you.
I have been grateful for, and inspired by those of you who have had the courage to speak up recently and share your love, regrets and forgiveness for one another. I want to add my voice to the kind words that have been shared. I want each and everyone of you to know how much I love you. I know that I have a lot of faults of my own, including poor communication (especially when it comes to expressing my emotions), I can also sometimes be "blonde" (forgetful, airheaded, etc), among other weaknesses. This is what life is for, to recognize and try to learn from these weaknesses, as we learn in Ether 12. One thing I would like to make clear though, is that no matter what, despite my faults, I love you. I hope that you would know that I am always here for you. I know I live far away, but I hope that you know you could turn to me whenever you need me.
I know this can be a touchy subject for some, but I want you all to know that I don't care what your last name is (or was)! I love you all the same. Perhaps some of us are closer with certain siblings than with others. I think most of that has to do with age and opportunity. For example, I am not bitter that Peter and Paul are best friends because they grew up sharing a room, and many wonderful and even not-so-wonderful experiences together. In fact, I am more than happy for them, I think they are so fortunate to be so blessed to have one another. I am not going to go through every relationship here, but the point I want to make is that I love you, and I want you to be happy in this life, and forever. I pray that you can forgive me for any wrongs I have commited against you at any time in my life. And hopefully, you can desire to be with me and the rest of our family in the here-after.
PS I ask that you be respectful of my blog and those that I love, if you have anything negative to say about me or anyone else in this family, I ask that you first stop and reconsider. And if you still feel the need to share such thoughts, that they be done on a personal level, rather than on my blog. Thank you.